Sometimes

Sometimes I get so paralyzed with fear at the thought of doing something new that I almost convince myself that I'm not good enough or ready enough to do it at all. But then I realize that every other time I've tried something new, despite the fear and inexperience, I survived and adapted.

Sometimes I get so tempted to hurt and judge the people who hurt and judge me. Then I realize that that's just more hurting and judging and doesn't solve anything.

Sometimes I get so discouraged that every little thing that happens throughout the day evokes uncontrollable tears. Then I realize that discouragement is always temporary and that something good may be just around the corner.    

Sometimes I convince myself that I deserve nothing wonderful and that my happiness is invalid because it won't last. Then I realize that it's okay to be happy and that I deserve everything that makes me feel that way. 

Sometimes I get really sad for no reason in particular and decide to torment myself with junk food, darkness, and sad songs and then torment myself for tormenting myself. Then I realize that I have every right to eat junk food, sit all alone in the dark, and listen to sad songs if that's what feels right to me in the moment.    

Sometimes I put a lot of pressure on myself to write inspiring content for you guys and then tell myself my content sucks when it has no real rhyme or reason to it. Then I realize that you guys still think I'm pretty great and seem to like my simple, random posts. 

I'm just really glad you decided to stop by today.

<3 Madison